We're in no hurry, God. We're content to linger in the path sign-posted with your decisions. Who you are and what you've done are all we'll ever want. Through the night my soul longs for you. Deep from within me my spirit reaches out to you. (26:8-9)I wish I could say this was true of me. It's not, especially today. I am in a hurry, but I'm not sure why. And in the moment, I want what I want, not what God wants for me or in His timing. And I've procrastinated in writing this post because I've had a hard time connecting with these chapters. It's been an odd day, both mentally and spiritually.
But I'm thankful for the discipline and accountability of being in the Scriptures, even when I don't feel like it. It forces me to take my mind off of all of the tasks I want to accomplish (one of my idols!) Having to write coherent thoughts here makes me think and pray about what I'm reading and to internalize it. I desperately needed that today although I avoided it for much of the day. Why do I resist Him so?? Whenever I finally relent and come to Him, He gives me His peace. I can already feel my mood changing as God quiets my heart with a familiar passage:
Throw wide the gates so good and true people can enter. People with their minds set on you, you keep completely whole, steady on their feet, because they keep at it and don't quit. Depend on God and keep at it because in the Lord God you have a sure thing. (26:3-4)Lord, I only have me to offer to You, and I feel like a crazy, sinful mess. I feel like You're dismantling me again, and I'm not sure I can take what that might entail. I'm also wondering if You're preparing me to hear Your words of comfort and hope. Is that what You're doing, God? I haven't felt very connected to the chapters in Isaiah, but I still feel troubled and discontented on some deep level. God, I pray You'll give me the grace to keep at it, even when I don't want to. Give me the grace to lean into You on days like this, instead of retreating into myself. You are my only sure thing.
Open their eyes to what you do, to see your zealous love for your people. (26:11)
1 comment:
Cici, I missed Isa 26:8-9. Oh what a treasure to think on.
Love the call of Isa 25:9-11
"Look at what's happened! This is our God!
We waited for him and he showed up and saved us!
This God, the one we waited for!
Let's celebrate! I so see how this is my story that can only be explained that God showed up on all my mess. And my messes even this day, He showed up to save me from myself. "With God's help, I shall become myself." SK
"God's hand rests on this mountain!" In some ways, we all are climbing a mountain in our lives and sto see His Hand rest on it. I see His Hand resting on your life, Cici~ A mind set on God, Steady on your feet, Because you will keep at it and never quit. You never will, Cici. Isa 26:3. So love to drop by here and read your intriguing posts.
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